06/07/2026
My last reading shift is today after over 10 years of doing professional psychic reading work. No more psychic readings or in-person classes. 😁 so thrilled!!! Leaving all this behind in peace and gratitude.
Below is a description of the darker aspects of this transformation that I feel called to share honestly and authentically, not to throw shade, but as hopefully helpful forewarning and insight for others that give or receive readings, as FB allows long written posts haha:
(Disclaimer before you continue reading this detailed post about why this change is occurring: I in no way am trying to insult, offend, or put down former clients with what I express here. I understand fully that each client had a resonance assisting my spiritual growth, and I am grateful for all lessons and wish everyone the most happiness! I am also not trying to diss anyone that enjoys giving or receiving readings. This is only my personal subjective experience and opinion that I felt called to share of my story of loving readings as a very unhealed person and the more I healed, the more I came to hate readings. I got myself into this work and finally got myself out, so I'm not blaming anyone. Perhaps sharing my perspective about readings will assist others on their spiritual journey.)
Readings for myself and others has been a huge chapter of my spiritual journey that took over half of my life. Beyond ecstatic to now leave them in the past. I am so grateful for the ones I received that helped me during my confusing dark night of the soul, and for giving them helping me to build confidence in my psychic abilities. Hopefully my readings have assisted others positively on their spiritual paths along the way. I always tried to give the highest quality work I could. Grateful for the many kind and gracious clients I have had the pleasure to meet. 🙏
Readings were always only a stair-step for me and doing them professionally was born out of a desire to get out of muggle jobs and do something more deep and soulful on the daily. They were never my long term passion or purpose. I became compelled with my people pleasing childhood wounds of self-abandonment to help people to my own detriment with many unhealthy experiences. I wanted people to feel truly seen the way I felt I wasn't when I was young, so I put others above me unconsciously. I started this work before I had developed any personal boundaries as I was still somewhat young fresh out of college and had not matured into a self-respecting adult yet. I have dealt with some clients who are reading addict energy vampires that sucked me dry of all my energy when I read for them, leechy needy ones who drilled me incessantly with exhausting rapid-fire questioning where it was never enough to calm them down, and have even had a couple of abusive clients that treated me very disrespectfully. I have also had clients that just wanted to use me as a spy on others and after a while that felt very unethical. Sometimes, even though I would do my best to never judge a client's question, I would get shallow and superficial questions and I would do my job and answer them for the client and tried to never judge the client, but after the reading would think "Oh my God, this cannot be my life. This isn't helping them spiritually at all," and would feel physically disgusted with nausea. Many reading clients I've encountered just want their egos coddled and don't want to do the inner work to align with their desires or spiritually grow, so it was frustrating to read for them time and time again feeling like they weren't listening to the guidance coming through at all or I had to answer questions that were not healthy and my work was pointless for them. Most reading clients actually need healing, though they tended to get defensive when this came up in readings and state they only needed answers, not healing. I learned to believe in and respect myself more and create healthy boundaries through these interactions. I realized I must get out of this work to stop being an energy source for others to drain who do not want to help themselves. I don't want to be the crutch for others on their spiritual journey - I want to be someone that supports them to blossom on their own.
When I became aware of this, it made the work even harder to do and I would dread it every day. The most readings I can do a day while still recovering my energy well is 3, but I live so far away and that is not how shifts at shops work. I've been booked out most shifts for years now. Back when I did phone and video readings, I did more in a day than I even remember, readings literally all day to survive before and after my reading shifts, it was awful. It takes half a day to recover from a day of a normal shift of readings, so they have slowed me down in everything else in my life immensely. I had to stop trades with friends too as that became very unhealthy. I can't tell you how many shadow work healings I have done crying and screaming on my way to work. I felt so stuck but kept doing all the healing work I could on myself despite my exhaustion. I began to get sick feeling every shift and also lose my empathy, which is not a good sign, as I naturally am very empathetic and love people immensely. Then I began to feel fake because it would be hard to be cheery. It just hit a breaking point for me of too much dread and drain, and I couldn't drag myself to this work anymore, so I made the decision to no longer force myself to do it for the money to survive, which is honestly why I was stuck in it for so long. I have been trying to get out of this work for many years. It was a toxic sludge of ick to me that I had to lower myself into in order to pay my bills, feeling glued to the reading chair like an oracle dancing monkey in a cage having to tap into other people's energy all the time when I was so tired and just wanted to focus on myself, not others, for once. I know that sounds dramatic, but that is honestly how it felt. I wasn't able to free myself until now - all the years of daily self work added up! It took a lot of layers of healing, re-programming of my subconscious, raising of my self-concept, and entering the end state of feeling the relief of being free of it before it actually manifested. I truly have cleared the limiting belief that I need to do things I don't like in order to survive, and have full trust in myself and the divine with a regulated nervous system, and am reinforcing the empowering belief that money flows to me abundantly, easily, effortlessly, and enjoyably now. This transition is such liberation for me that I can't even fully explain it.
I am glad to now trust in my own intuition and assist others in doing that too in a healthier way. A lot of my life has been learning how to honor and care for myself in a way where I am not a doormat or drowning in the drama and problems of others, and I feel I am finally getting there in my personal and professional life. I still believe divination is a very helpful thing while navigating the beggining of a spiritual awakening and ascension journey, but with balance to not overuse or abuse it, and it is best to divine for oneself and never become dependent on it. I will only read for myself very rarely now if I ever feel the intuitive nudge to, but never daily. I literally put my copper dowsing rods away which were my favorite divination tool; no more need for confirmational check-ins all the time for myself, as I have come to realize the need to ask for confirmation where you don't fully trust your own intuition is always rooted in fear - that is the opposite of the self-love I've been working on cultivating my whole adult life. I've come to the point in my healing that I am at peace in the present moment without needing to know anything extra to feel safe in life. I fully trust myself and Source and can handle whatever comes my way. I've learned its best to make peace with whatever timeline happens, especially the worst case scenario.
I will never seek out a reading from another individual or give another individual a reading for the rest of my life. This service has been beyond burnt out for me where I could never do it again. I used to be a desperate and addicted reading client that then ironically karmically experienced the other side of things, to then just be now done with readings from and for other individuals altogether. I have stopped listening to youtube and tiktok readings a while back and will only give group readings in my Moon Rituals from now on. What once was high vibrational feeling to me now is so low vibrational feeling to me. I realize that while working through 4D, readings are medicine, but once one heals to a level of 5D and begins anchoring that into the 3D, readings become poison. I have transmuted and alchemized and changed for the better so much to get to this place of not needing to know anything for confirmation. I trust my spirit team to give me any messages that benefit me without ever seeking them. So freaking proud of myself. Had to stop doing this service in layers over many years - no more video readings, then no more phone readings, then no more in-person - finally I am fully free!
Because of my experience, I have grown so passionate about empowering others to grow their own intuition and learn to trust and discern with it themselves. That is the focus of my business. 🔮 Kundalini work and spiritual teachings classes are done with me upholding a high frequency for the student to connect with, not lowering mine like readings required me to. It is so much more healthy for me and the receiver to assist others in this way.
I am also leaving behind in-person kundalini transmissions. :) Virtual is just as potent as an in-person. I am now focusing this business on growing my online content! Finally able to put the time and energy into that that I have always wanted to! I believe in the value of my online work and appreciate all who are open to it. It has always been my long-term vision for this business. Thank you all!
