01/01/2024
Here’s something I’ve never told anybody - but coming into the new year I always get a weird sixth sense of what’s to come for the upcoming year.
Some years, I have really good feelings about the new year and usually they turn out to be relatively good, but after a tough several months in 2022 - I wasn’t feeling so great about 2023. I remember being on a walk with my wife and telling her I felt like 2023 had a huge rain cloud over it.
Because of that - I poured myself into my work - determined to make that cloud disappear and make 2023 a “good” year. But after several months of constant grinding and battling with the inevitable - my mental health caught up with me.
I fell into a really deep depression. I stopped taking clients, started saying no to good opportunities, and generally just felt stuck. This year has been one of the most intense journeys of my mental health. Because of that - I started journaling a lot more, I read books like “The Mountain is You” and “You Are Your Own”, I started therapy, and focused on what I wanted out of life.
After several months - I started seeing a silver lining. I kept telling people that I had felt like I was climbing up a dark hole for the last year and that I was just poking my head out and getting my first glimpse at what was on the other side. I compared it to seeing a sunrise for the first time in a long time.
Even though my mental health journey will always be a process, the ending of this year has felt like a dream and I’m thankful for all of you who were a part of it.
I have a real good feeling about 2024. Wishing you all the best for this new year.
But before I go and enjoy the festivities for the last day of the year, I have to thank my wonderful and magical wife - because even though we have been going through similar growing pains this year - you were still there supporting, teaching, and pushing me to go for what I want in life. Showing me the power of visualization and speaking out what I wanted instead of keeping it inside. Being beside each other as we navigate what this life holds and growing together has been a huge blessing in life. I love you and am grateful we found each other. ❤️